Why is it so difficult?

Why is it so difficult to stay close to God? Why are there so many things in this world that try to separate the mankind from its Creator? Oh dear Jesus, have mercy on us.

I asked God, "why aren't you helping me?!", and He did not respond.

I received no help in the work that I did. Eventually I finished it, and it was then, when I realized that it was an unnecessary struggle. The work I put so much effort to complete could wait. There was no hurry. It was only me, who thought that I have no time left.

God was wise. I was stupid.

I was watching anime online like always, and the time was approaching 3pm, so I knew I was supposed to pray the Chaplet of the Divine Mercy, but when the clock showed 3:00 PM, I just continued to watch anime, because I had 5 more minutes to the end of the episode. Why pause now?

And after the episode ended, I looked up, and said, "Chill out, God, it's already past 3pm, so it's not a big deal if I pray a little later," and I clicked play button for the next episode.

Then the browser crashed... and it wouldn't reopen.

So I prayed the chaplet, and then went back to watching anime.

Every day God lets me understand how little I know and how much more I need to learn.

"For those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted." Matthew 23:12

"When man makes plans, God laughs." - proverb.

Even when I cannot feel God's presence anymore, I can be sure that He's still with me.